A few photos to illustrate my mood:
Yes, Halloween is gone but I have two new jobs starting in the next couple of weeks and an impending sense of doom. I had a scary actor dream last night where I didn’t know my lines and the play was cancelled because of me. I’m feeling most inadequate at getting all the prep work done for employment. Every time I think I’m done with the paperwork there’s another bale of it. I should be excited. Instead I’ve started reading Holocaust literature again.
It would help if there was snow. Alaskan winter nights without snow are desolate. Nobody comes to rob your house or is screaming in the street. I went running tonight with my little headlamp and my reflective winter hat. It’s warmer running outdoors than sitting in my house. We keep the heat at around 60 degrees Fahrenheit. My sister told me we should bubble wrap our windows to keep the heat in. It sounds like there would be much postal tape involved and I would make a mess of it. It’s pretty convenient just to sit under the covers and mope or swear at some form I’m trying to fill out.
I attempted to make business cards today. You make them 10 to a page then print them out on this cute little paper with 10 cutouts. Unfortunately, I backspaced and one of the cards disappeared, then three more lost their photos. Perhaps God is telling me to replace the cute little photo with a skull and crossbones.
I got a new smart phone because I thought it would help me feel professional. I keep stabbing it with my finger to make it do something. Today I dialed my landlord by mistake. He thought it was funny because I usually only call to tell him something is wrong. i pretended everything was okay.
So don’t go and worry about me. If my paperwork is incomplete so I can’t work tomorrow I will make fudge instead. Even if I do work I can make fudge later. I can also wear my annoying orange costume from the Halloween store to keep me warm.